Free Marriage Record Access - Genealogy

For anyone researching family members who married in Canada or England, I just noticed ancestry.ca is offering free access to these records ONLY until May 1st! Hurry and check it out while you still can!

Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice....I'm an idiot!

So about a year and a half ago I had a fall outside a local grocery store. We were coming out of the place, walking across the parking lot to the van. It had rained earlier so the pavement was still pretty wet. Hubby is up ahead of me abit, with the cart and here I come, trailing behind in my fugly crocs. (Now I know, crocs have got to be about the ugliest shoe ever invented, but when you have battled Plantar Fascitis for over a year at that point, putting your foot into something that makes you feel like you are an angel walking on clouds is heaven. ) Out of the corner of my eye I notice a taxicab coming towards me so I "think" I decided to speed up a bit cause frankly, some of them are crazy bastards behind the wheel. I say "think" cause I don't recall making a conscious decision to try and SWIM in the many puddles in the Superstore parking lot by doing a faceplant onto the pavement, in full view of the cab, AND in front of the front doors of the store, which is exactly what I did. Eventually the moans, groans and squeals of pain made my husband turn around at which point he says "Nanci, what the hell are you doing?" After thoughts of ways to kill him and hide the body left my mind, he picked me up off the ground and home we went. Few hours later I had him take me to the hospital when I moved and "felt" like bone shifted against bone and I damn near passed out in the lazyboy chair. After a 5 1/2 hour wait in emerg I came home with a wrap on my foot, pain killers in my belly, and the diagnosis of torn ligaments (not to mention more thoughts of ways of killing a spouse that didn't require movement of my leg). One would think that lovely adventure would be enough to make me realize that crocs, while comfy, are NOT the most sensible shoe in wet weather.

I'm not a quick study........

So it's been raining here all damn week. I've got a busy morning with taking the boy to school and then coming home, showering, eatting, breakfast and getting to the garage with the van for 10am. Drop off the demon....oops....darling....pull in the yard, out of the van I get take one step onto the back stairs YES WEARING MY CROCS, and have an out-of-body experience! My damn croc -wearing foot slips on the wet wood, slidessssss off the step and under the riser above it DRIVING my shin up into the underside of it and down I go!!! Let's just say if we had a "Swear Jar" in our house, I'd have enough money to take you all to the Bahamas for a week. So while I am now wearing a very sexy purple bruise complete with softball-sized swelling on my shin, I am NOT wearing my crocs.

Relapse

I AM an addict. There are no two ways around it. My drug of choice isn't beer or wine. It's not heroin or crack. It's not cigarettes. It is food. Glorious food. Delicious, mouth-watering, make you drool flavors. And as someone who has been a past smoker and past excessive drinker (never touched narcotics) I can tell you in my own personal experience, the addiction to food is something that is MUCH harder to overcome.

I am sure some skinny bitch is sitting out there reading this thinking "Just put down the twinkie fatass!" and since I have never had a twinkie that is something that is easily accomplished. What I think people that haven't had weight-issues fail to understand (and likely don't care TO understand) is that the "food" itself isn't the whole issue. There is a mental/mind thing that also needs to be worked out to overcome this.

"Excuses! That's all you are doing is making excuses!" And while I can understand how someone on the outside looking in might see it that way I say to you, "Look around you." Most of us know someone - a friend, family member, or even yourself who has battled some type of addiction -cigarettes, booze, drugs, whatever. If you took that addict and MADE them have whatever it was they were addicted to, but in smaller quantities are they no longer an addict? How are they "kicking the habit" if they are still using? A smoker can quit smoking and live. An alcoholic can quit drinking and live. A drug addict can quit smoking/snorting/shooting up and live. A food addict.........well, that doesn't quite work so well. We "quit" our addiction and we don't live. Failure to eat results in this pesky little thing called death. A food addict has to learn to manage their addiction and let me tell you, it is no easy feat.

The last few weeks have been a huge struggle for me. I don't know why. I don't know what has changed in my mind that has allowed me to relinquish the control I had when I began WW in January, but I have definitely not been where I need to be mentally. As a result, the long-anticipated weight gain reared its ugly head last night at weigh-in. All-in-all, the gain was nothing, only 1/2 a pound but it isn't so much the number as it is the meaning behind it. Why, when I have been waiting for a gain the last few weeks, have I not been able to mentally refocus myself and get back on track before the anticipation of a gain became the reality of one? If I couldn't kick my ass back in line before, can I now? All this time I thought my greatest fear was creepy crawlie things, but could my greatest fear be success?

Out of the mouths of babes

The Boy - Mom, why do monkeys have hands on their feet?

Me - They are their toes buddy. They do look like hands with their long toes don't they?

Him - Why do they have them?

Me - Well, they need them to be able to climb trees. They have to be able to climb good to escape predators.

Him - We should have them too!!

Me - We don't need to climb trees to escape predators buddy.

Him - Yes we do! Lawyers!

Week 13 WW

So, last night was weigh-in, I went expecting to see my first gain since starting Weight Watchers. It definitely hasn't been one of my greatest weeks, certainly was better than it was pre-Weight Watchers, but figured I was about to get smacked by the hunk of metal and told to smarten the hell up. I guess my body was happy I went apeshit last week and was in such a state of shock it fought extra hard to lose cause I lost more last night then the two earlier weeks when I had been better. Last night I lost a further 1.1 pounds bringing my current total loss to 20.7 pounds!! I feel like I just got a stay of execution from the governor and better make some better choices before that stay is taken back!

Missouri Death Records

If anyone has people who were in the state of Missouri just found a great site that has an index of Missouri deaths WITH images of the records. Records run 1910-1960 Check it out!! http://www.sos.mo.gov/archives/resources/deathcertificates/#searchdeat And don't forget the free Civil War era records search ends in a few days on ancestry.com

Week 11/12 WW

Down 0.9 a week ago and down another 0.7 this Tuesday for a total of 19.6 lost.